Just jump.

My son is afraid to jump off the diving board at swim lessons. I watch him carefully and nervously make his way out to the end. He retreats. He walks back out. He takes a few steps back then forward with some encouraging words from his instructor. She is right behind him now inching him closer. He shakes his head and she lowers him down. After swim we talk about about it and I tell him he just needs to go for it. “Just jump.” I say. “Make it fun! You can do it. Just jump!”

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There are so many reasons that I haven’t posted in a while.

It’s summer.

My kids are home.

I have to feed them.

I have to play with them.

My house is mess.

We’ve been away.

We’re taking swim lessons.

I’ve been at barre class.

I’m tired.

But mostly, I think I may be a shitty blogger. I just don’t have the passion for it anymore. I’m in a bloggy slump.

I don’t get paid to do this, yeah I get some free stuff here and there, but…. well. It doesn’t pay for my shoe/purse habit. I’m kind of a junkie.

I feel like I’ve lost my way. Lost my voice. I feel like no one is reading this except for the #4HB peeps. And my bloggy friends – smooch. And of course, my mom and dad. Which I thank you for!

There is so much I want to do here, and elsewhere, but really all I can do right now is be a mom and try to keep my house clean. Seriously that’s all I can muster. I see everyone “doing so much” and I think, my God I’m a slacker. But I know I’m not. I just feeeeeel that way.

I also feel like I’ve written this before. Maybe I am a shitty blogger? I love video – I should be a vlogger. But then I’d have to put makeup on and such. It’s too much.

Do you ever just feel like you’re not living up to your potential? Like there’s is more if you just push yourself a little bit? If we just jumped…

 

just jump

 

Next week when my son goes back for his second round of swim lessons I may just jump off that diving board before him. “Watch Mommy!” I’ll say.

Just jump!

 

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4 Comments

  1. Just for the record, I love your posts. You’re not a shitty blogger, I’m just a shitty commenter. But, I’m here, reading and enjoying and looking forward to watching you & your sweet boy jump in! :) xo

  2. Sonya /

    I just found your blog yesterday and think you’re great. You validate so many of my feelings and nothing like knowing you have friends in the same battle. ;)

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