Day 4 – WDW (part 1). So many things.
Oh yeah, it’s gonna come to you in parts, Wednesday is. Mmmmm hmmmmm.
Good Morning Wednesday! Our fourth day at Disney and well, you’ve been reading right?
Nate woke up with a 102.5 fever. Again.
I gave him some meds. I call my mother and say I don’t know what to do anymore.
I feel defeated and sad and overwhelmed. And my baby is sick. Correction, two of my babies are sick. Theo is not coughing anymore, but still a whiny mess. I’m tired. So many things.
I planned for so long, saved for so long. So much expectation. And this day, this morning – I’m feeling it. I’m starting to lose the happy mask I have put on for the past few days. I need to leave the room without anyone. I go outside and call my mom again and tell her to meet me for coffee. I start to cry.
I just wanted this for my kids, for me, for my family. Just some happy freaking family memories. Is that too much to ask?
I’m walking towards reception just gutted and feeling super sorry for myself and my kids. I’m crying again now.
WHO EFFING CRIES AT DISNEY? It’s the happiest place on earth! OMG. I’m losing it.
I thanked the cast members at reception, which I’m sure they thought was bizarro. I hurried off to the bathroom and let my self wallow and cry for two more minutes. Then I pulled up my big girl panties (literally), changed my attitude, and decided.
Nana, Sienna, Theo and I would head out to the Magic Kingdom!
I went back to the room and told the big boy that I wanted to take his sister to the park. I just had to. He knows and says it’s ok. I’m sad for him, but the girl is in a princess dress ready to see Cinderella’s Castle for chrissakes and that’s what we’re going to do. He gets it.
My husband is staying behind to tend to him. He’ll watch him and decide whether he needs more meds, a trip to the ER, a swim, ice cream: whatever he wants. They are together and they’ll be fine.
We’re all gonna be just fine. I guess I just needed a little Disney magic to send me on my way.